hello everyone...
since this is the last blog for the year...
erm erm... got to pendown a bit!!!
my mood was pretty weird for the day..
morning---filled with studying atmosphere
afternoon---small group discussion (least attention given there)
evening & night--- much dedicated to flag practice...
yeah.. talking about mood swings.. mine doesnt really 'swings' that easily
...probably once again being away from home..
and yet to celebrate it with mummy and daddy...
the feeling is just incomplete...
no hard feelings for my dear friends...
they tried to have nice little parties for today's countdown...
... got to continue later... friends calling...
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
perfectionist = mission accomplish???
oh... it's another hard day for me yesterday.
probably due to much activities that demands countless hours,
or should i say that it's the lacking of a burning spirit?
lately, i start to realise that there is a gradual change in me...
this transcient turnover happens subconsciously...
while i reminisce the incidents last few months,
i see too much unnecessary pressure and stress in my life.
(my 1st sport in uni was futsal...
initially it was only for merit purposes...
***important for getting a hostel...fight222
then it proceeded with a growing interest after meeting a bunch of silly teammates,
but as you train, you are expected to improve...
and that got me in deep deep trouble now...
there are of course expectations... eyes that waTCH.. ears that LISten and
words that Erupts.. to be the best???
is it necessary.. is it worth all the bruises???
dad has warn me about being GK... should i listen and quit and
forsake my own principle of determination...
or should i let stubornness rule over me ... pending future that is pretty far from reached....)
actually the sky out there is much brighter,
however i will continue to search for better 'vision', better illumination elsewhere.
i cant deny that this was very much likely the influence of being in a chinese school before.
since young, we were taught to improve everyday..
to perform.. to distinguish above others,
this is the DUTY as a student. yeah right!!!
as day passes, i try to put my heart in everything that i'm involved in
no matter its studies or sports or art...
(Physics was one of the subject i dislike the most,
but i was too determined to score that i drew myself into the notion that it was my favourite)
i didnt know how it is done. but eventually i did it.
( none of my friends is ever gonna believe it)
i guess even my mum wouldn't know this!!!
besides my close friends, i spoke a lot to my mum,
and ya... she's just like a tapworm in my stomach
reading my next move and so on...
AR.... there are times where i really want to stop thinking,
stop doing, stop performing, stop chasing over victories...
my happy-go-lucky friends can do so... why not me???
i want to stop being a perfectionist for once...
i want to let everythine goes in their own way...
i want to be set free....free of competition..
i want a new breath of air... filled with love and harmony
and lastly i want more in life beyond the little success and victory..
(life is not just a lever balance that weighs name and honour but is inflated with the air of wisdom and knowledge)
conclusion : being a perfectionist will never equate to mission accomplished....
probably due to much activities that demands countless hours,
or should i say that it's the lacking of a burning spirit?
lately, i start to realise that there is a gradual change in me...
this transcient turnover happens subconsciously...
while i reminisce the incidents last few months,
i see too much unnecessary pressure and stress in my life.
(my 1st sport in uni was futsal...
initially it was only for merit purposes...
***important for getting a hostel...fight222
then it proceeded with a growing interest after meeting a bunch of silly teammates,
but as you train, you are expected to improve...
and that got me in deep deep trouble now...
there are of course expectations... eyes that waTCH.. ears that LISten and
words that Erupts.. to be the best???
is it necessary.. is it worth all the bruises???
dad has warn me about being GK... should i listen and quit and
forsake my own principle of determination...
or should i let stubornness rule over me ... pending future that is pretty far from reached....)
actually the sky out there is much brighter,
however i will continue to search for better 'vision', better illumination elsewhere.
i cant deny that this was very much likely the influence of being in a chinese school before.
since young, we were taught to improve everyday..
to perform.. to distinguish above others,
this is the DUTY as a student. yeah right!!!
as day passes, i try to put my heart in everything that i'm involved in
no matter its studies or sports or art...
(Physics was one of the subject i dislike the most,
but i was too determined to score that i drew myself into the notion that it was my favourite)
i didnt know how it is done. but eventually i did it.
( none of my friends is ever gonna believe it)
i guess even my mum wouldn't know this!!!
besides my close friends, i spoke a lot to my mum,
and ya... she's just like a tapworm in my stomach
reading my next move and so on...
AR.... there are times where i really want to stop thinking,
stop doing, stop performing, stop chasing over victories...
my happy-go-lucky friends can do so... why not me???
i want to stop being a perfectionist for once...
i want to let everythine goes in their own way...
i want to be set free....free of competition..
i want a new breath of air... filled with love and harmony
and lastly i want more in life beyond the little success and victory..
(life is not just a lever balance that weighs name and honour but is inflated with the air of wisdom and knowledge)
conclusion : being a perfectionist will never equate to mission accomplished....
Thursday, December 17, 2009
year 2009
its december.... yeah... (school kids are seen running around.... high school teens shopping here and there)
wow... it's also a good time to recollect what indeed happened in the past 11 months...
i m always lazy to upload pictures ... unlike the others.. furniture their blogs with wonderful imginary images.. bravo***
erm erm... so far.. life in usmkk is normal... more books and more sports.. sometimes it's so fun to be a student that i will wish upon wish to stay at this age... play as hard as i could-------run as far as i wish... youth
futsal competition will be on in 2 more days... after days and months of practices with my team... finally i can say that this wasnt a bad choice after all...
every team member has their distinctive humerous stories... (i cant stop but to exercise my abd ms everyday i see them)....:>>>>> lol
though the ball is sphere .. ya sure it is.. it appeals to diff people so differently...
one more busy schedule that is piling up is flag practice for CNY... too many activities... too little time... but miracally... when you are short of time.. you tend to appreciate time even more.. absorbing what is suppose to go IN faster...faster.. and faster...
hopefully me 1st year life will not be carried away by all these duties but added with more colours and FUN.... good food too !!!
good luck everyone
wow... it's also a good time to recollect what indeed happened in the past 11 months...
i m always lazy to upload pictures ... unlike the others.. furniture their blogs with wonderful imginary images.. bravo***
erm erm... so far.. life in usmkk is normal... more books and more sports.. sometimes it's so fun to be a student that i will wish upon wish to stay at this age... play as hard as i could-------run as far as i wish... youth
futsal competition will be on in 2 more days... after days and months of practices with my team... finally i can say that this wasnt a bad choice after all...
every team member has their distinctive humerous stories... (i cant stop but to exercise my abd ms everyday i see them)....:>>>>> lol
though the ball is sphere .. ya sure it is.. it appeals to diff people so differently...
one more busy schedule that is piling up is flag practice for CNY... too many activities... too little time... but miracally... when you are short of time.. you tend to appreciate time even more.. absorbing what is suppose to go IN faster...faster.. and faster...
hopefully me 1st year life will not be carried away by all these duties but added with more colours and FUN.... good food too !!!
good luck everyone
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
i love holidays
herm... wat did i do today? went to meet a doc ( not much to worry )... later went yumcha with 3 gila-gila matrix frens... yaya.. i really miss the time & moments in KMPP where the gang of frens surrounding me were all famous for thier silly talks and tricks! that's call life after all... like what people say.. ( without cracking jokes , where can we find laughters? ) yeap... hopefully i will be able to seek such individuals in my 2nd home... *hunting* practically...
we went to Kenny Rogers... haha... what a nice lunch to treat our stomach... chatting chatting and chatting... the whole purpose of LUNCH... lol
later on... came photo shooting... huh... it;s not a bad thing after all to be a bit tan... counting my lucky stars... at least in the photos ... i still look 'human'... Really pity the others... they looked so pale as if being soaked in a pale of detergent overnight...(no bad feeling kkk me frens)
later on, i got a sweet sweet sleep where i dreamt for for the last 1 month... finally
Moving on... i had a simple yet delicious dinner at grandma house.. it's sort of a gathering with my cousin's family... (cant rmb the last time i met him) nvm... the crucial point is that... this little meal really sparks my heart to further love my family... my hometown..and my HOME... how good is i can just shake legs and hands at home... boiling down all the collections of TVB series...
OK... it's time to wake up.. time will not freeze... then so does life!!! i see every visit back to ipoh as an energy charger to boost up my spirit ... haha... *charging* ---- miss you guys... all of ya night!!!
we went to Kenny Rogers... haha... what a nice lunch to treat our stomach... chatting chatting and chatting... the whole purpose of LUNCH... lol
later on... came photo shooting... huh... it;s not a bad thing after all to be a bit tan... counting my lucky stars... at least in the photos ... i still look 'human'... Really pity the others... they looked so pale as if being soaked in a pale of detergent overnight...(no bad feeling kkk me frens)
later on, i got a sweet sweet sleep where i dreamt for for the last 1 month... finally
Moving on... i had a simple yet delicious dinner at grandma house.. it's sort of a gathering with my cousin's family... (cant rmb the last time i met him) nvm... the crucial point is that... this little meal really sparks my heart to further love my family... my hometown..and my HOME... how good is i can just shake legs and hands at home... boiling down all the collections of TVB series...
OK... it's time to wake up.. time will not freeze... then so does life!!! i see every visit back to ipoh as an energy charger to boost up my spirit ... haha... *charging* ---- miss you guys... all of ya night!!!
Saturday, September 19, 2009
i'm a FREE girl!!!
Welcome back to the Real world!!!! haha... what a huge relieve after 2 weeks of endless notes regurtitating.... wow... i nearly had gastric... v v close to it indeed for this Selanjar 1 exam (sounds more like the term exam to me :+ ) but thank god.... everything is called history after the clock striked 10 am on 17th sept....
EXAM...exam... to me...its another breakthrough every time i finished them... the sense of satisfactation had never fail me... ****delightness**** i bet my coursemates in USMkk wil hav this very 1st experience sticked in their mind for the next 4 years... *( good luck guys , girls )
during this exam, i see quite a lot of diff styles and strategies of me frens coping with exam... ranging from those noctunal ones to those who sleep more than 8 hours a day to charge up (:>>>> me me heheheh )
erm.... one will not know how lucky you are until u feel the warmth of frens or seniors esp during the time of exams.... haha... let see... how about a nice warm (red bean soup) being delivered to your room late at 2330 just in time to treat your grumbling stomach... HAHA.. how sweet is that... haha.... after several months away from blogging ... i m practically trying to swim back to the shore .. catching up with the details ...
keep in touch , dear friends.... miss ya!@!!!! all of ya!!! take care..
EXAM...exam... to me...its another breakthrough every time i finished them... the sense of satisfactation had never fail me... ****delightness**** i bet my coursemates in USMkk wil hav this very 1st experience sticked in their mind for the next 4 years... *( good luck guys , girls )
during this exam, i see quite a lot of diff styles and strategies of me frens coping with exam... ranging from those noctunal ones to those who sleep more than 8 hours a day to charge up (:>>>> me me heheheh )
erm.... one will not know how lucky you are until u feel the warmth of frens or seniors esp during the time of exams.... haha... let see... how about a nice warm (red bean soup) being delivered to your room late at 2330 just in time to treat your grumbling stomach... HAHA.. how sweet is that... haha.... after several months away from blogging ... i m practically trying to swim back to the shore .. catching up with the details ...
keep in touch , dear friends.... miss ya!@!!!! all of ya!!! take care..
Friday, July 10, 2009
fresh air... fresh life... little uni ant!!!
yeaarh.... how should i put this???
life in uni is pretty different as most people mentioned. Skidding through my tiring orientation week 4 days ago was such an unforgetable experience. Truthfully, it wasnt quite like my imaginated pic. yeah..yeah... the seniors (PPSL) were quite da freindly and helpful of course....lol really appreciated v v v much of their efforts ( towards designing a better pathways for freshies )... rumours about ragging and fearsome seniors were totally out of the frame...
tame might be the right word.
however , walking day by day ... leaving my footprints on more and more of this ground... when i start to count myself into this huge*** community , i realise how alien it is from the image ive got 4 days ago!!! kinda irony , every place has its own story and history. It is really important to dive yourself into the real life.
during matrix, it's hard to find someone to talk to except those dealing with books...xxxx2
but here, everything is changing, at a pace that enlighten you sometimes, adding in colours and cliparts. similarly , it does cause the exact amount of harm occasionally.
luckily , one thing that i most certainly happy is the sense of togetherness that survive in our community's heart (for the moment being). and to me, that's more than enough to brace up my life here... may the love of friendship RuLEZ....
ha ha ha .... laughing is the best transquilizer!!!
life in uni is pretty different as most people mentioned. Skidding through my tiring orientation week 4 days ago was such an unforgetable experience. Truthfully, it wasnt quite like my imaginated pic. yeah..yeah... the seniors (PPSL) were quite da freindly and helpful of course....lol really appreciated v v v much of their efforts ( towards designing a better pathways for freshies )... rumours about ragging and fearsome seniors were totally out of the frame...
tame might be the right word.
however , walking day by day ... leaving my footprints on more and more of this ground... when i start to count myself into this huge*** community , i realise how alien it is from the image ive got 4 days ago!!! kinda irony , every place has its own story and history. It is really important to dive yourself into the real life.
during matrix, it's hard to find someone to talk to except those dealing with books...xxxx2
but here, everything is changing, at a pace that enlighten you sometimes, adding in colours and cliparts. similarly , it does cause the exact amount of harm occasionally.
luckily , one thing that i most certainly happy is the sense of togetherness that survive in our community's heart (for the moment being). and to me, that's more than enough to brace up my life here... may the love of friendship RuLEZ....
ha ha ha .... laughing is the best transquilizer!!!
Sunday, June 7, 2009
holidays...sounds attractive...however.... timeee
yes indeed im on a long long long holiday.....in actual fact probably to me alone its pretty long.....seeing that days pass by with unbroken series of chinese dramas flown in frm HK , added with uncountable side dishes that come along after those delicious main meals served every now and then. LIfE is just terrific*** more like a princess life minus all house chores , most importantly multipying the love of my bunch of psychic friends!!! ha ha. hope fully one more dream come true-----hunting back the oLD Old good friends i scooped up 18 ++ years back... Working life , much like my first ever experience is not a bed of roses after all... happy things blended really well with the irritating menace. Furthermore, nothing is perfect in this world right... life with laughters leads the way...say one of my friend... genius one I Say!!!
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